R. Sager: Archive

May 23rd

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May 21st

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May 21st

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May 19th

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May 15th

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my stepmother can be an evil bitch

May 15th

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What's up?

Nothing nothing nothing nothing pokemon nothing nothing nothing tumblr facebook twitter nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing dark dark dark dark sleep soon… nothing

May 14th

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May 13th

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May 13th

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May 13th

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May 12th

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LOL!

May 12th

May 11th

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remaining calm

I can’t believe how incredibly anti-social I’ve become in the last few weeks… It should be the complete opposite but it really scares the shit out of me… This random crappy weather has taken it’s toll… I have to try and be calm and make it through the coming weeks

May 7th

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May 6th

deja vu has been happening to me a LOT this week

Apr 28th

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Apr 28th

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I’m finding my way back… I’ve been so lost and confused this week.

Apr 27th

Apr 26th

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Apr 23rd

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Apr 23rd

Apr 22nd

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Apr 19th

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Apr 16th

Apr 15th

Apr 9th

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Apr 8th

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Apr 6th

Apr 2nd

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Apr 2nd

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Mar 12th

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Recovery

Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
Expectation: Hey, I think I feel pretty good!
Expectation: I guess that means I'm normal now! Time to go live a normal life!
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Reality: I feel terrible.
Reality: I still feel terrible.
Reality: Is this seriously "recovery?" This sucks.
Reality: I don't want to be thinking about all of this shit, this is exhausting.
Reality: I guess today's not so bad.
Reality: Today is bad again.
Reality: Today is bad, but I think I'm starting to understand why.
Reality: Wow, how long has it been since I cleaned my room?
Reality: Cleaning my room didn't make me feel any better, but hey, room's clean.
Reality: Whoa, okay, I need a shower. And maybe a haircut? Definitely a haircut.
Reality: Everything sucks.
Reality: Okay, except you.
Reality: And you too, I didn't mean that you sucked.
Reality: And that thing that I like is pretty cool.
Reality: What was I talking about?
Reality: Oh, THAT'S why my ex broke up with me.
Reality: Wow, it turns out that was totally my fault?
Reality: I was the jackass.
Reality: Holy shit, I am such a jackass.
Reality: Everybody must hate me.
Reality: EVERYBODY HATES ME.
Reality: Okay, how could everybody hate me? I mean, even if I'm a jackass, the Law of Averages dictates that SOMEBODY out there would probably like me anyway.
Reality: Why would everybody hate me anyway, I'm awesome.
Reality: ...I'm not that awesome.
Reality: Sometimes I'm pretty awesome, though.
Reality: OH MY GOD I HATE MYSELF
Reality: WHAT IS THIS, I'M RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED
Reality: EVERYTHING SUCKS, THE WORLD SUCKS, I SUCK, NOBODY WILL EVER LOVE ME AND I WILL DIE UNMOURNED AND ALONE
Reality: ...What the hell was that about?
Reality: Anyway, gonna get stuff done.
Reality: Gonna get stuff done
Reality: Getting stuff done
Reality: WHY DO I FAIL AT EVERYTHING
Reality: WALLOWING
Reality: WALLOWING SOME MORE
Reality: Okay NO MORE WALLOWING, we've talked about this, we're not doing this right now.
Reality: ...I can't believe that worked.
Reality: Huh.
Reality: So hang on, is this it?
Reality: I mean, is this recovery? Am I doing this right? Is it going to be over soon?
Reality: I just want to be normal.
Reality: I am such a ridiculous trainwreck of a human being. How do I even exist? Why do I get to have friends? Why do you people talk to me? There's so much about myself that I really don't like, and there's probably even more stuff that I don't even know about that isn't too hot, either. And I'm working on it, but man, it's hard.
Reality: ...I just realized that everything I just said is normal.
Reality: Oh my God, am I already normal?
Reality: I'M ALREADY NORMAL. THIS IS NORMAL.
Reality: It's...not exactly everything I was hoping for, to tell you the truth.
Reality: ...Oh well.
Reality: Today was okay.
Reality: Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Mar 6th

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Mar 4th

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I used to really want my bachelor’s degree in music education/performance… but the further I get in my 20’s, the less desirable it has become and I really wish I didn’t start college anyway. Fuck. I’m so tired.

Mar 3rd

Watch

captain-spiced-rum: convixial: 2013’s Galaxy Chocolate Ad featuring Audrey Hepburn They made her CGI… like that isn’t a real person, that’s Audrey Hepburn made by a computer… I’m gonna go ahead and say that at least a little bit of her was actual footage, since they never showed her directly interacting with anything modern

Mar 3rd

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